Ku Na a.k.a SyawA in da haus

Few more hours to go and i will be boarding the plane back to KUL. I am so happy and excited and the same time tired and broed of course.

I woke up early today… and it is SUNDAY! I can’t sleep because i know i have not finished packing my stuff. I can’t sleep because i know i will be leaving Aydin for two weeks. I can’t sleep because i am afraid things in the house will go chaos while i am not around. Call me "mak rimau" (Tiger’s mum) but i am so particular on how i bring up my child. Aydin is at the stage of learning new words and imitating what others do. I hope the maid or whoever will not spoil him while i am not around. Sigh.. there’s nothing much you can do from abroad but keep on reminding hubby of the do’s and dont’s

2 more days to go and i will be leaving for Houston on a business trip for 2 weeks. I am excited and also nervous and also emotional, i have all my feelings mixed up. To make it worse, i have a knock-out futsal game tomorrow with EMIT. Let’s take it one thing at a time:

Excited: I am all set to visit the country where i received my Bachelor’s Degree. I wish i could drop by in Kansas City and visit some old friends but i couldnt find any cheap airfares online. I have basically planned out my trip besides the official work of course, and i am sure i will have loads of fun though i will be there all by myself

Nervous: This is the first time i will be meeting my new team members and my boss. I am not sure what are their expectation but one thing for sure i will be bringing back alot of work load with me.

Emotional: Obviously because this will be my first time being away from Aydin, my precious little prince. I have never been away for not even a day, let alone 2 weeks! I hope i will survive this trip and he will survive the days without me. Aydin is a mummy’s boy and he sleeps with me every night. I hope i do not have to call him every night before he goes to bed.

Sigh.. what more could i ask for but an interesting and challenging life.

Believe it or not, i didnt know that others view my friendster differently. What i mean is, i didnt know that what i see whenever i logged into my friendster’s account is different from how other’s view it whenever they view my page.. :)) Rupa-rupanya, a summary of my blog is attached on the frontpage or whatever you call it on friendster *bimbo*. So for all this while i thought peoplpe would have to figure out at a certain link to view my blog sebab tu i was so confident that people hardly reads it. And i was complaining to myself one fine day because i could not see the background you customized though i dah buat banyak2 kali rupa-rupanya kena bukak the actual site hahaha… so much for computer science graduate. Can i blame it on the year i graduated and the recent technology? Or the technology is moving too fast for me to catch up? That’s what i call "Bimbo!" (shut-up ezu! i know you are laughing)

Anyway, like i said in my earlier blog, my life has been pretty challenging lately. I put the blame on myself for having too much time to think. I have had no time to think this much for the past… one and the half year or probably more because i started to lose the time to myself since i got pregnant to Aydin. After i found out i was a pregger, i spent most of my time thinking about the bub. After i gave birth to Aydin, it was… the bub a.k.a Aydin (duuhh!!). My whole life revolves around Aydin especially when hubby had to work in Kulim for 7-8 months. Not that he was not home every weekend but a profession as a mother is definitely a 26-hour job especially when your other half is not around. Now that i have a maid and hopefully she will be around for quite some time, and hubby back in town AND a new job which has not really kicked off until i have completed my training, i have all the time in the world to THINK and analyze life (obviously not when Aydin is around la..).

OK.. that’s all about my THINK for now because suddenly my brain has stopped THINKING. I shall go back to sleep… nite!